In all that time I have come to know the power of Gods love. I have not been healed and still am in pain as I write this, but what I have experienced has been amazing.
A month ago I was at my wits end. I lay in bed crying and poured out my heart to God. I had given up on everything! I asked Him if He had forgotten me; was I being punished; was He still there? I told God that if He cared for me, then why has He not sent anyone to physically come and pray for me and allow me to unburden myself. The very next day I had a knock on the door. As I opened the door, there stood a man I respect, a God fearing minister (I say that because some are not) who felt God tell him -while he was preaching that morning- to some pray for me! I almost burst out crying (but I had a pride issue). He ministered to me and I felt I had a new lease on life.
God has revealed Himself to me in so many ways. I've had friends, acquaintances and strangers send me messages of encouragement and prayer. My facebook wall and inbox, sms, email, is full of these gifts of love.
Just this past tuesday, I discovered a friend and her mother fasted for me for my health. That same day three different groups of people took time to lay hands on me and pray for me.
I am currently running and Alpha course at a church. When the Alpha weekend was due to run, I was in hospital. I had talks to do but was unable to. My friends and colleagues, selflessly gave up their weekend to stand in my place to make sure all went well. God pitched up!
Last night (Thursday) I had a speaker lined up to do the talk. She couldn't make it so I did the scheduled talk. Here's the kicker - it was entitled: DOES GOD HEAL TODAY! I couldn't not help but laugh at the irony.
From my bench, I have seen God orchestrate life and I am humbled. I have learnt to see God at work. I am blown away!
I CANNOT deny that God is up to something with me. He is allowing this pain to continue for some reason and for His glory.
I will not lie, I am itching to get off the bench and go flat out back into life but I am under His guidance and mercy and will trust Him for that moment.
Until then, God is in control and His will be done.
Keep the SON in your eyes!
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